Planning for a better future

morning started with the voices of the past ..
then i made up my to be stay in conscious mode.
chopped onions and helped my sister in cooking,I found kitchen
is the nice bonding place to grow relationship with my mother and sister
Had a good sleep and food in the after noon
Talked with my fiancee.No tension at all felt very relaxing after the
sleep and played football in the evening,What i analysed in the game is i am not palying for the goal that reflects in my life also
i am just making passes acts as a good team player but not a star palyer.
will be a star palyer in every sort.
Teached mathu about cryptography for her diploma project.

Went to church and the message was eternal hope.
Jesus won the death the word was inspiring ...to me death was worries and
hopelessness at this point.To my ablity i want to win worry and hopeless ness
Planning for a better future.
updated the resume and sent to many friends.
Have to go to office tommorrow

This day i am in my hometown,Still i am thinking about the past.that is yesterday .My friend and fiancee and encouraging me a lot .And 90% i am out of that .So what ? is my question to them and i feel them as a mad crowd running for what they deserve ...some people have madness for money, some people have madness
for fame ,some people have their madness for love...May be my desire to live life doesnt match with their unbalanced way of life.Working for something that will not bring happines and their wellbeing.So I am out of the Box..Here I am i am going to work to live life and i will have commitment towards the thing i feel life.
So far here in home i had a good food with fish fry and went to my fiancee home.In the morning i went to church to meet father for catechism study and he was not there in the morning and i went again in the evening and he took class related to god..One thing which resides in my mind is ,if you want to reach god ,among fellow humans and accepting humans as you friend .submission to the will of god
leads to grace in life.I dont know about god but i know goodness can be reached in this life rather than believing in kingdom that is in heaven.
And there after watched Vijay TV, the dance show and i started to believe in will of god and the peoples prejudice about others.In the evening talked to my brother about my problem in office.Is that a problem i think now ... good thinking
My ego says like that.Identifying myself with that office creates this pain and i am going to withdraw that.Going to choose a nearest office of transportability that will make my life comfartable.
To make myself to feel good I was telling to myself that I am High potential.Self Thinking is very important in the making
and breaking of myself .Whatever you think is what you are.I have to take care of my mothers health.

Dont love your company love your job

This is what i learned today when i manager told that i am not fit enough for their
requirement .THey may be true to their opinion ..its good for me ,i am going shift to some other company to create my own new self ...Happily agreed later after initial hesitation and questioning why they suuposed to do.The reason is i am not in time to deliver.Ok great ..Go ahead its life ...

day of peaceful mental state without instant fruit

Today i was pretty cool in work from the morning .in the afternoon i took a nap for half an hour in desk itself.There after i felt a complete peace of mind .
I worked on issue and found the root cause which i tried to fix ,but still havent worked to reach that its taking time though i focussed fully .May be i am not going in the right direction it seems .Will have to work tomorrow and will finish that.
That what my work end though drained in work still feeling stable and happy ..
now a days i am not feeling for what i cant. a good attitude is nt(:)).

In organisation's social front, designed a teaser for organ donation camp ... pretty good design and karthik R helped me out and another csc member called me up to inform the date that is Apr 7 in our facility ..

called my home asked about taking license there in my hometown.

personally i am not revealing everything happening between me and my fiancee ,were feeling very intimate ..obviously and i will live a commited and trustful life towards her in all circumstance.

have to go homemmy apartment here ...
bye bye ..
feeling wakeful since i slept in the afternoon ..but i am not going to work..
ok bye ..
Have to take printouts for my roommate.
have to eat well and after talking i will sleep

Atlast an happy ending in my work today ..

My Morning started around 7:50 itself i waked up after the voices in head started its job .i stopped them there itself and came out to live.
I made myself that i will Think with alertness rather than thought running into my head ... Is that i attended that thinking mode perfectly to some extent ...
In the morning itself i planned on my task prioritisation ..

1.Community service activity
I did satisfying campaign in mail about organ donation ...well done my boy :)
2.Closing some PR
Succeded atleast in one pr .tomorrow i can do another
3.Working on my Development
It was not that easy today ... i did lot of working .i felt my lead was little impatience today though he helped me ..who cares about his patience if i dont know
where else shall i go rather than reinventing the wheels on my won..
After a long time after solving the db records issue..reinitialized everything
it worked well after deploying in a new machine ...
Atlast the unexpected other operation in the dialog also worked well
tomorrow i have to work on the tool dialog.
An happy ending atlast at work...
In between i talked with my fiancee ..pretty relaxing when i talked with her .. i felt her to talk .
yeah here after have to update my poem blog and time to say bye bye ...

a day of less focus

today it was a peaceful wakeup ..slept well last night ...
after waking up called up my girl and talked for sometime (one hour is sometime eh :) ?)..
enjoyed the music of illayaraja nothing but wind ...esp Do nothing track i like the flute track ..high pitch violin needs mental stamina i feel...
later came back to office ...
in work its not that much smooth ..very dull both mentally as well as physically..some of issue in getting the server bean itself ,had problem in deployment..so the fast is not pretty good in work...
in between a small misunderstanding with my Cube2mate to install the server which i use ..i have another 2 cubemate ..
oneto one HR meeting was also there ..told everything as satisfied except package she told that she is not called on that scope ..
Things got done feeled satisfied after things worked well ..

..blogged a poem in tamil
at the end of the day right now i am signing off to home...
wishing to eat some tasty food for the supper in the hotel..
bye ...





working harder to meet the commitment

came back to office from home town

I became a weekly flyer to home town, the gist of this day is every enjoyable moment with my fiancee ...took a nap in the after noon...its a 2 hr sleep ...very tired and my eyes got heavy so took that to manage working ... and in work started very boringly abd got heat up ..chatted with malai kannan ...and have to go home now
time is 11:00 ...a long eventful day