Journal of the Little mind -3

                 Its Sundays,
                      Its a busy day actually.Letting my kid to drop in the dance school and picking her up.
                     Buying fish ,cleaning them and then frying them.Listening to the kids giving all the 
                     attention they needed.In the afternoon ,after they slept felt to work on the setting up 
                     the tv to computer.Worked on that which gave me some relaxation and fun at the 
                     end  it still need to be worked on but its fine ,I had some path laid for the consecutive  work.We went to church int the evening and night was so short slept my 12:30 eventhough i havent slept at the afternoon .

• What caused your stress (make a guess if you’re unsure)

                         Waking up and attending to the childrens need when i am so tired.
                            

• How you felt, both physically and emotionally

                        Exhausted and irritated

• How you acted in response 

                I tried to calm myself and explained how exhausted we as parents

• What you did to make yourself feel better  
•  Went to church and did some meditation in the afternoon for five  minutes

Journal of little mind-2

   The thoughts of the past is still part of my thought process but i gradually reducing.I am trying to not create the stories but still i have not forgotten those things.Its was surrendering to the body and seeking the longing for intimacy which my partner obliged.In the morning i took a long reading session with newspaper and after that mediated a while ,remembering how to handle the everyday event and seeking the guidance of almighty if he exists.I went to office in the noon ,i have to start early atleast .The thing that comes to my mind is I have to do an yoga in the morning after sending kids to the school.Then its a lazy work schedule but i worked .
I have to take integrity in life in all parts above my own identity.Appreciating and respecting my words will free from heavy burdens of me.
 In the afternoon ,I was listening to the successful people in youtube and tedx talk that gave me some perspective in life.Night came though ,I am thankful to the goodness for giving this wonderful kids,with them I am so much purposeful.

Journal of little mind-1

                 Today is almost start of the day,now its midnight ,I am not getting sleep and i thought better to put that in words to free my mind,

     My mind is stressed out to the subconscious level,I am getting dreams of  family issues which is quite overwhelming ,and i am just recovering day by day .
                   My face is like haunted ,lifeless and somebody sucked my very being.I am caught in the survival turmoil ,this world is thoroughly lying or thats what it occurring to me[the occurring world is unreal that is the lesson i learned from a pro gramme,is that everything i perceive is unreal ,the way i think about myself and the way others thinks about myself,perceived by a small piece of the brain which interprets the very existence of this world based on its own loaded experience it has .]
So the mind is tired to go to office and its lost all its passion it once lived.Yes it needs a constant excitement for other spiritual source.Now i lost that contact and i miss that energy emotionally.
What is missing in my life ?
 Energy ,Peace of mind ,Fulfillment within my own self
Where I am heading to ?
  boredom in mind and in other words feeling purposeless  .
What should i do to avert ?
 Create new structure .Meet new people of the same frequency
Freeing myself from three portals of hell .Lust ,Greed and anger.
There is no goal to achieve?
 Cycling and meditation is the next thing in my to do list ,to repair and reboot my mind .Good to go.. Will try to post everyday.